I've been having a bad week since the previous weekend. Lots of crying and mood swings, moms been bothering me a lot and putting me down. I've been getting really depressed lately.
Til just yesterday, my hunnies always been there for me. I was constantly crying and told him "i wish to be with my brothers", they have all passed away and i felt like i've been left behind. I dont want to put up with my parents anymore. I just want to be happy. He sounded really upset, everytime i'm sad he is too, and asked me, "but dont you want to be with me?". It hit me, he's right, i want to be with him more than anything in the world. I want us to be happy together.
Before we hung up, he repeatedly yelled. "I love you! I Love You! I LOVE YOU!", it put a smile on my face. I love him soo much, i dont want to make him upset over me anymore. I dont want him to worry. So i'm going to try harder to fight it. Learn to control my emotions, and just ignore my mother.
Wish me luck to be stronger, not just for me, but for my daughter and lover.
^_^
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