Valentines

So for Valentines and our Engagement Anni. hubby surprised me early with Tulips, bag of Sixlets chocolates, a couple of movies with popcorn, and made dinner.

He's the sweetest :) Nothings better than cuddling at home.
As for mommy and daughter. We made a dozen chocolate covered strawberries and chocolate covered bananas.
Maykala enjoyed it. I'm glad she's interested in everything I do and active, than being glued to technology.

They tasted and turned out great ^_^.
When Valentines day actually came. Since Dustin works during the day. I made us pancakes for breakfast with heart shaped strawberries. He was very happy, and loves my pancakes! They melt in your mouth! We didn't get to do much but it's okay. Quality time matters most <3

Other than that... for the rest of the month of February,
we finally get our tax return this month, and the exciting part is we're using it to get more furniture for our home!
Hopefully a couch, dinning table, and a entertainment center.
We're also going to be spoiling our pets a bit by getting them lots of toys and Ninja a huge kitty tower!

I'm so excited!! Hopefully after we refurnish our home i'll make another post!
Oh but hubby did get some bookcases for our computer room. It's amazing how much of a difference, something so simple could do.
After putting those bookcases up and filling them up (finally we got rid of our boxes of books in the closet! lol). It made the room much cozier and nice! I love it :)

Hopefully one day we'll have an entire library room. So our book collection will keep growing ^_^

2013! January

So we went to visit UT. for our daughters birthday. So she could celebrate it with our family and friends.

I really missed my friends, and Maykala was happy to see grandma and grandpa.

My mother took a week off for us, and of course we took a little advantage of that! She watches over Maykala for us so daddy and I can go relax and enjoy ourselves :)

We finally got to watch a movie. Since we can't take Maykala to any of the scary ones of course. We watched Rise of the Guardians. It was a great animation, we would've taken Maykala. But the bad guy (Boogie Man) would have scared her.

We also got to hang out with my bestie Janice :) It was great seeing her. haha, the day before leaving she bought me 2 large bags of Hot Fries! Which used to be my most favorite chips in high school. Hilarious part was, she went through 3 stores just to find them for me! Awe! Bad part for me is I'm trying to cut out on junkies! (thanks janice! >.>)

Hubby really wanted to go dancing, because he hasn't got to for the past year, since he joined the military. I felt really bad and wanted to make him happy. And unfortunately Cheyenne has no Ballroom Dance Studios :(

So I found one in Murray. Boy was he excited! Janice came along with us. It was just a short 2 hour beginners - advanced West Coast Swing or Mamba lessons. But they keep the studio open an additional 4 hours for fun :)

I didn't know Janice picked up Salsa, so during our free time after all the lessons. Hubby and her were busting out moves, and Janice doing her Salsa showing him up! haha! We had a great night, ending it with In and Out burgers with a movie at Janice's bfs place.

I'm really glad we went to visit Utah. It was really nice to get out of Cheyenne for a while, but at the same time we missed our cozy home.

MIA

So a lot has happened this year!

Dustin, Maykala, Ninja, and I moved hubby's new base in Cheyenne, WY. It's not the greatest place, but it is much better than the two other choices he got. Which were Montana (i think..) and North Dakota. Because those two other states don't even have much civilization there at all! So basically no close cities or anything!

Atleast here, we're only about 2 hours away from Denver, CO.

It's not that nice here though. Mostly windy and hot during the summer, then extremely cold during the winter.

Mostly lots of flat land and not much trees. Explains all the darn wind, there's nothing to block it!

We got another additional family member! His name is Kunai and is our new Shiba Inu puppy! So far he's smart and a bit stubborn. But Shiba's are known for their stubbornness. (below pic of Kunai & Ninja)

We've moved twice so far, from renting a house off base to now staying on base in a 3bd, 2bth, and 1 car garage town home.

Apparently though, we're going to have to move again to a newly renovated townhouse that has a 2 car garage.

Our new home is pretty nice though, and luckily has a fenced yard for Kunai to run around :)

As for everything else has been great. I started working for a while at the on base Exchange, and our family has been great and happy. We're finally settled down (relief!).

Hubby's Home!

^_^ Husband came home about a week ago. He finally graduated Tech Training in the military. I'm so proud of him! So far we've been living in my home for a week now, house sitting my parents home til they're back from Laos.
Things have been absolutely great. I really am happy, having him around, in my life, everyday feeling his touch, kisses, i love you's. ^_^ Things couldn't get any better, yet... They still are. :]
My daughter, loves him, calls him daddy. Plays with him and is opening up towards 'daddy' more and more everyday. I couldn't ask for more.

Within a week, we will be moving to his base in another state. Wyoming, We're very excited. Got to start looking for a new place to call 'our home'.

Been buying kitchen ware and such for our new place, no no we're not going out of our way to get every little thing. Only our necessaties. For now we can live without a couch and dinning table for a while. Bit of a budget atm, espicially since for my 21st birthday we will be going to Vegas!
Yeah baby! This will be my first timer. I'm soo soo excited! Friends from Cali, and Utah, are driving there with me. What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas right?

Anyways. UGH, I want to brag, brag, brag! Its okay to do so online right? haha
I'm just soo happy. Been very very happy, I have an absolutely wonderful husband. My dream guy come true. <3
So sweet, kind, being a wonderful husband and father. ( I actually can not wait til we have our first baby... soon... ^_^ )
But lets hope it'll stay this way forever. :]
Oh, by the way we already do have a new addition to our family. ^_^ His name is Ninja. Ninja, whaat? haha. He's our sweet three month old grey and white tabby kitten. Kitty's are very very ninja like, hiding, jumping very high, always landing on their feet. (or at least most of the time aha)
He's very adorable. We've had him for almost a week now. Past couple of days he's been opening up to us more and more. Purring, meowing, and even walking all over us to get petted. I love him so much. Gosh my husband spoils me way too much. :]

One day, love, I'll be spoiling you back, with watches, shoes, toys, games, whatever you desire. For now, I hope my love, kisses, and care are enough. ^_^

Engaged!!!

On February 18th, My boyfriend Dustin. Took me out to LA, CA, near where he's currently based. And asked me to marry him!!! My ring is absolutely beautiful. I love it so much. I'm such a lucky girl. During our whole relationship, he kept telling me. No, he's not ready yet, to even think about marrying or settling down yet.
I didn't disagree. And just went along with our relationship, that one day we would. But I was expecting like a couple of years down the line!
^_^
Before, we did talk about it on the phone, and he said he doesn't have the money for a ring, sarcastically telling me he's going to give me an onion ring... LOL... I didn't think he was really going to do it!
We went to a Gazebo on a cliff by the ocean in Pismo Beach. There was a slight breeze, so a little chilly.
But it is the ocean side, expected.
Both wearing sweaters. The sun was just setting. There were flowers on the path towards the Gazebo. It was soo pretty! I absolutely loved the view of the ocean, watching the waves crash. Fresh air.
Before I knew it, he went down on one knee. Giving me a speech. I was surprised, but also, very very puzzled. What? I thought he doesn't have a ring??
Oh wait.. *smiling* thinking to myself.. "onion ring..." hahaha! He did! He took a box from behind his back, and there was an over sized onion ring in a ring box! Hilarious! >:[ I can't believe he actually did it! haha
As he smiled and laughed, he brought out another box, stood before me and opened it up.
OMG. There was a real diamond ring. I was soo speechless i couldn't even squeel with excitement. haha, all i could do was smile, A LOT.

We tried it on, and it was snug, but fit me. :]
Kissed, Hugged, Held me and spun me in a circle! Finally! I giggled and squeeled! Unfortunately there were people watching from apartments or something, so i was too embaressed to scream more. hahaha. ^_^
We had an amazing weekend together in a nice suite at Candlewood Hotel. Best weekend of my life! ^_^

I love you so much hunnie. My.. Fiance and soon to be.. Husband. Hubby!!! haha eeek!! ^_^

Roses and Dark Chocolates <3

Pismo Beach

Thirteen Days Apart

Its been Thirteen days now since Dustin has left to training. Must I say, Its tough, I'm very attached to him, to his voice, to having him around everyday. I'm not getting depressed just yet, But i was extremely happy yet sad when he had to go after giving me the first phone call today for 10 minutes.
Only Ten minutes, but it was sweet. He was sniffling, his voice dry, sad. I knew he missed me. I love that, love to know that he's also attached to me. He told me he's cried a couple of times, missing me. Miss hearing my voice. I missed his too.
So he told me he's put in the toughest squad, I could hear them calling his name in the background. Hes constantly running around. Having only 2 minutes to eat, scorching down his food every day and Being woken up at random hours. Unable to sleep properly. Telling me its horrible. Oh my poor baby.
But I doubt he was placed in the toughest squad for no reason. Hes amazing, and my man always does his best. I believe in you sweet heart. Two down, 6 more weeks to go.
I hope you remember, this is just the beginning.

Caught Up

i've been so busy and just... moody. Sad that my boyfriend is leaving to Training in a couple of days, went to go visit him two weeks ago, so i should be happy. We werent even sure if we'd get to see each other again before he leaves. So that was lucky.
I hope everythings going to be okay, I'm going to wait for him. ^_^ Love him soo soo much.
Currently have my daughter back home now and mothers gone for a month in Laos, so I've got some freedom and more bonding time with my daughter. Today it just snowed, theres about an 1-2 inches of snow outside. Time to grab the boots and jackets! ^_^.
Wish i could spend Christmas with hunnie, but its okay. :] I just hope him the best of luck.
Thats about it for now, i'm still super lazy.
Oh I did get to hang out with an old friend i havnt seen for a year now. She slept over and we had a little sushi. She was bugging the crap out of Maykala. And got to meet my hunnie. :]
Although i still feel crappy that Dustin came home early yesterday, but i didnt get to spend much time with him because Allysa was over, So im kinda. uuugh, hes leaving soon and i couldve had hours with him =T.
Oh well its done and over. But that little girl time was nice, catching up and her having a new bf also. Haha and talking about sex. hahaha.. :]

Miracle

Ohh My GOD! This entire weekend, a miracle occured, O.o.

My mother did not once talk down on me, nor nag about anything towards me! I know, I am shocked myself!! Yet I still stay on my toes, for once she does =.=" But because of that, I enjoyed my entire weekend stress free! It felt soo GOOD!

Honestly though, I didnt do much, just spent lots of time with my daughter, and rented four movies to watch. They were, Rite, Avatar the Last Airbender (the movie), Thor, and Despicable Me. ^_^ Friends said Rite was pretty creepy, so I watched it with one of my girlfriends, and my god, i jumped like a hundred times! No not because I got scared, because SHE got scared, and every time she jumped, I did too!! So annoying, LOL. Airbender was pretty lame, but I just wanted to see, since I am a fan of the cartoon version. Now as for Thor, that I enjoyed, it had a little bit of romance, and the story line was pretty interesting!

I already returned those three and have yet to watch Despicable Me. Although I have already seen this, it is just the cutest cartoon ever! I could watch it a hundred times and never get sick of it, I really wish I had the movie. ^_^

Now for today, I relaxed a little, slept in a bit, helped do some chores around the house, then went to the mall with daughter and mother, just because well, my mom wanted to. Got some Pizza for dinner, and two decent, but super cheap, dresses today! Five and seven bucks, oh and my mom bought make up from Lancome, so I got the gift that came with it. I'm not sure why my mom is purchasing make up at this age still, shes getting so old... But i'm not going to complain. ^_^ Oh I also made yummy ribs yesterday! Mmmm I want mooore!!

 Outfit Of the Days, Friday and Saturay.

 7 dollar and 5 dollar dress, Random DOMO hat teehee ^_^

Difference

        From our last quarrel, he posted on his facebook status update as
 "sad i couldn't make a difference", to this day, every time i see it. I'm sadden, very very much. How could he think like that? I don't think he understands nor believes how much of an impact he has made in my life, "you are a difference" in so many ways.

       He took my hand and brought me back on my feet, he is part of my reason to keep fighting, he doesn't understand how badly I used to want to give up, even with my daughter, my depression got to the point where it didn't matter anymore, you just want to be selfish, make all the pain and agony disappear in literally, any possible way. Yes I've thought of suicide hundreds of times. But as of right now, my man, makes me want to be better, do better, show everyone that I wont give up, I'm not weak. If he really loves me, can he see that I want to be his woman? I want to strive for our happiness, I want to be perfect in every way, show him that I can be strong, independent, reliable, and lovable. I want to make him love me more, want me more, crave for me in every way. For my personality, for my love, for my reliablity, for everything.

       I wish he could see through my eyes, how his footsteps light my path, I want to follow him all the way, support him through all his obstacles, let him know that I am here waiting. You're never alone, I'm here now, and I've got you, Maykala will have a father to look up to. To be her super daddy. In my eyes, my man is completely amazing, always holding his chin up high, fighting, full filling his dreams, not afraid to chase after anything. Perhaps he really may be afraid, deep inside, but he will still try, and never give up. So smart, creative, daring. I have always admired him, since long ago, he'll never know. Haha, I remember, back in the days, I have always thought he was very very handsome. ^_^ And so smart and everything! I have always thought, til this day, that he's out of my league, and I'm sure he still is. That is why I'm always afraid of him leaving me, leaving me because I'm not good enough for him, because of my problems, my anger, I wonder if he has the patience for me to change, to wait for me to become better...?

        It's late, these are my thoughts for the moment, perhaps I will shed tears to bed tonight.

      

Rage

So, lately, and just now, me and my man been arguing quite frequently, and thats really dissapointing to us. We usually get along so well, we used to. We're pretty addicted to playing the game called League of Legends together, and lately, been getting mad over that, because apparently we depend on each other too much since we're both great players. We know what to expect, or know what each other is capable of. So when one of us messes up, we get angry. Well, just now, we talked it out. I'm feeling better now. Our goal is to stop getting angry, and learn to just enjoy the game more, thats what games are for anyways, right?

Sigh* to our dumb lovers quarrel. I adore him very much, no more fighting.

And i need to stop running away from any type of arguments, including small ones, listen to him more, and everything.

Okay, i feel better getting this off my chest.

As for the past week, i've been very disapointed on my school work, i have not been doing as much work as i should be, and i really dont want to use any excuses, but here it goes... =.="

Just, tons of stress, and my god, my period is still crazy, hormones still aren't back to normal yet from the birth control shot i took. I got my period twice this month already, stupidly. I also have not been working out as much as i would like to, i feel like i'm soo behind in Everything!! And that seriously upsets me. I want to do better, my motivation is still hard to adjust, but i'm really trying... Lets hope things get better for me next week. I will be getting my permit at then, and earn more credits, yeah?

mmm.. as for good news, not much, my daughter still isn't home yet, and i miss her like crazy, this will be the third week that i have yet to see my baby, but shes visiting family in another state right now, still. I did get new boots as a present, muk luks, thats good right? lols... bfs been super awsome. Thats about it. Love my hunnie, i want us to do better together, get along again. No more trouble. <3

Bye Bye Kookie

*sigh* yesterday, afternoon my pet bunny Kookie died. I'm not even sure how! This morning when i checked up on her, she was still okay. But i shouldve known that she was ill!! Its all my fault, i noticed that she wasn't eating as much the day before, but i didn't think much of it because i thought she just didnt want to while the dogs were around. What was I thinking?!? She usually eats either way! :(
I miss her so much, it was so sad to see her body life less and limp... I cried a lot yesterday, and cried myself to sleep again last night. This morning i woke up with puffy sore eyes, and my body just feels really tired.
I'm still a bit depressed, but theres nothing i can do. I wonder what even caused her death... Did she eat something wrong? I do let her roam all over the house as she pleases. She got lots of exercise and everything! T_T *sigh*
I really don't plan on getting anymore pets til I have my own home now, so nothings in the way, and the house is pet safe. I did realise though that kookies been getting to the dog food a lot, maybe she ate too much dog food? Or it gave her gas and she died from ilea? But I didnt hear her tummy being weird at all...
*shrugs hrug shrug* I'm soo soo sorry kookie that I didnt take good enough care of you!! I love you soo soo much. :(

Motivation!

I've been having a bad week since the previous weekend. Lots of crying and mood swings, moms been bothering me a lot and putting me down. I've been getting really depressed lately.

Til just yesterday, my hunnies always been there for me. I was constantly crying and told him "i wish to be with my brothers", they have all passed away and i felt like i've been left behind. I dont want to put up with my parents anymore. I just want to be happy. He sounded really upset, everytime i'm sad he is too, and asked me, "but dont you want to be with me?". It hit me, he's right, i want to be with him more than anything in the world. I want us to be happy together. 

Before we hung up, he repeatedly yelled. "I love you! I Love You! I LOVE YOU!", it put a smile on my face. I love him soo much, i dont want to make him upset over me anymore. I dont want him to worry. So i'm going to try harder to fight it. Learn to control my emotions, and just ignore my mother.

Wish me luck to be stronger, not just for me, but for my daughter and lover.

^_^

My New Routine & Visitor!

Yaaay, school started! Did i mention that before already? hehe. I'm so happy that i finally get to get out of the house for once! So now that school has started, i am trying to achieve my diploma ASAP. Been trying to go to school about 9 am mon - thurs til 8 pm. I know, I know, 10 hours?! Say Whaat?! Well, i just stay in the study room to get help with packets and there are no distractions, so i can finish quicker ^_^.

Afterwards monday, weds, and friday nights i work out for about an hour, and some weekends i will be hitting the gym. Need to get in shape for my lover. <3

He's so hot, i want to be too! For him that is. ^_^ Oh oh, and i am super super excited that i get to see my man one more time before he leaves to training. Yaay!

Okay, so for today, I got a visitor! My cousins sisters new puppy, a maltese, they still havn't named her, but their parents are visiting so i'll be baby sitting this little bugger for a while.

She's so cute and quite active, reminds me of Lilo when she was pup, except this little girl is white. 

By the way, i love my boyfriend so much. He's been making me unbelievably happy, i'm so lucky to have met such a wonderful man, that i'm so compatible with. I never thought i'd meet someone that shares so much in common with me and none the less, he actually tries to keep our relationship working.

Its absolutely unbelievable how much he loves me, constantly spoiling me with his love and attention, and already acts as my daughters daddy ^_^. I can't wait for our future together, i really do see us working out and staying together...

Hunnie i love you so much. Thank you for everything.

Anyways here are photos of the little pup!

Swine flu

Wow, what a horrible long weekend it has been for me. You read it right, i've been sick with the swine flu. D: Constant vomiting, aching all over, dehydration, and tummy problems =.="

Gosh, my life sucks ass. I'm still feeling pretty exhausted right now, and still dehydrated also, but i really want to get back on my feet!

School already started and i have yet to gone. Grrr, i'm determined to get my goals done for this year, just as my promised my hunnie. So far i'm eating normally again, sorta, have tummy problems still though.

Omg though, sadly, since i've been sick, no ones really been taking care of my baby bunnies for me lately.

Checked on them today and they were so skinny T_T and stinky. Gave them baths and lots of food, currently running around my bedroom right now. Eating and sleeping a lot. That includes me and the bunnies.

mmmm thats about it i have to blog about for now, just filling in the lost days. I'm still fairly tired, body is a bit weak. More sleepy time.... zZzzZZzzz....

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Conan

So last night i finally went out during the evening, got to eat my yummy Cafe Rio Taco Salad mmm! And later on the night, i watched Conan the Barbarian movie that just came out on friday.

It was a Gory movie, and i dont take those very well haha... So much blood shed, but for a action movie, it had a bit of humor. No, this time not so much romance. Movie starts off told as a story, and well for the ending i thought it was a bit corny. Not going to spoil it though, but it was a okay movie. If you love blood shed, and gore then its a difinite, i wouldnt say it was a total waste of money either. ^_^ 

As for right now, today i am making a play pen for my baby bunnies. We got another addition and this little guy is extremely hyper, and none the less, not potty trained, so i can no longer keep them in my bedroom. I'll only let Kookie, and as the rest, not til theyre fully litter trained. 

Will be rearranging my room some more today. Maybe i'll put another photo update if i dont feel too lazy. Oh and last night i got a full 8 hours of sleep! Yay! Best sleep i've had for the past.. month! omg. ^_^

Baby Bunnies!!

Yay, finally! A New Post!! Lets start with yesterday, i've been productive this weekend so far. Cleaning house and rearranging my bedroom, i moved my bed and did my best to rid of spiders! Also did some weeding and sprayed a TON of bug spray all over.

But just today i recieved my two favorite baby bunnies, horray! My bunny Lucky had babies, i forgot how many, something like 12? So i got to take my two favorite home, since they stay at my daughters fathers home.

They're about 7 weeks old i think? So i'm not sure what their sex's are yet. But so far i'm thinking of naming the spotted one "Kookie" and the grey one "Dusty" ^_^. (yes hunnie like you, and haha he's a curious little one like you. Now if he turns out to be a girl then LOL.)

I felt a little lonely today, since everyone ditched me, including my own mother lol... so i'm glad i got the bunnies for company today. Daughter is currently staying at her fathers til i feel better.

<3 bunnies bunnies bunnies!!!!

 Moved my bed and added a side table.

 Spotty standing! Isnt that so cute?!

 Then Dusty came to me and stood too! He even sniffled at me ^^ so cuute!!

But yeah the bedroom is still in progress haha. I still have a lot more things to clean up and bring in from the basement. I'm getting there!!

MineCraft

So my friend got me into a game called MineCraft, its pretty awsome, surviving in the wild and getting pet wolves haha. But i didnt buy the game so its boring without a friend. I'm thinking about purchasing it for $15 bucks.

Other than that i've been getting a little more sleep lately, but wow last night i woke up way too many times, so i feel a bit restless today.

Was supposed to mow the lawn, do errands for parents, i hate them being fobs, cause i have to do literally everything for them. *shrugs* Cannot wait until i move out!!! It'd be the happiest day of my life. LOL.

Literally, welps, as for this upcoming weekend, hopefully i get my two favorite pet bunnies home ^_^. They will fill me with glee!! Being my stress relievers! haha.

I'm a bit tired right now, i wish i could just get a good full night sleep. And i absolutely miss my hunnie soo soo much!! D: havn't heard from him for a couple of days now... *sniff*

Loneliness

I've been feeling a bit depressed and lonely today. Don't exactly have any friends close by me to ever talk to, hang out with, or anything. Ever since i had my baby i've lost contact with so many friends, and i'm not able to hang out with them... No one to talk to sure is lonely.

Everyones busy, works, or they have money to actually go out and enjoy things... While, i can't.. =[

Oh well, this is what i get right? i guess i deserve it.... I Guess...

Wish i had a best friend or something that lived near me. Who i could talk to often or something. Not all day and everyday, just time to time... but there's no one... </3

My pets keep me company. I'm not used to sleeping alone, i feel uncomfortable, keeping my dogs near me makes me feel safer. In a way. I have my daughter and all but she's still too little, to talk to. haha. =T

August!

So i have not been posting for a while, not much has been happening. Other than those random crazy thunder storms, so no gardening and such. D: Well today was pretty nice and sunny (atleast in the afternoon til evening) afterwards it started pouring again around 9 pm.

But horray! It's a new month, been away from my man for about 3 weeks now, *sniff*. But i'm being a good girl, just as i promised hun!

Well for the afternoon, took dogs and baby out for a walk around my neighborhood today, felt nice, maykala can peddle her tricycle better now. Been teaching her English words, colors, and shapes a lot more often so she can speak to her new daddy (hope he is) :].

Felt good to go for a walk today, i was happy that Coco my Dobey finally got some exercise, he was so happy running about. ^_^

Didn't cook anything today, a bit lazy. I had another restless night tossing and turning *shrug* but its okay.

Oh also some things i've been thinking about lately. Been wanting to be more ambitious, of course i'm not able to do anything til i start making some money though haha.

But when i do, when i can, some things i'd like to experience and learn would be, going to the shooting range, i would love to learn how to become a sniper, handle all types of guns, then learn how to ride a bullet bike :D. Go snow boarding, be more adventurous. Life's short, i'm not giving up, i will become a good mother and hopefully wonderful wife some day ^_^. Prove whatever wrong, i deserve better, i will earn it. Tour the world, visit europe, japan, korea, paris, austrilia, everywhere with my significant other.

Hmm, hopefully dancing too, hunnie made it so fun when he taught me, now i want to learn and dance with him for once. <3

Thats all for now. In a bit i'll go on my late night jog, trying to get in shape. Although i havn't been jogging much at all this past week. D:

<3 Bye Bye!!